Ben Sheredos (UC San Diego) drew my attention earlier today to his manuscript, 'A Phenomenology of Professional Failure.' I gave it a read this afternoon, think it is very much relevant to some recent discussions we've had, and think it is well worth reading, both by early-career people and more advanced members of the profession. First, it may help prospective graduate students better understand and appreciate the actual stakes involved in pursuing a philosophy PhD. Second, it may help other people in Ben's situation–by perhaps helping them better understand their own experiences, as well as by letting them know they are not alone. Third, it may help more advanced members of the profession better understand and sympathize with the point-of-view of a seemingly growing number of early-career people disaffected by the profession. Finally, to that extent, perhaps it can lead our profession to do something that is surely long overdue: namely, better grapple with the fact that this is the kind of situation that all too many early-career members of our profession find themselves in. I hope I am not alone, when reading Ben's piece, in thinking we need to do better. For, to summarize just one of his piece's many takeaways, our profession seems professionalize the vast majority of its members (the 60+% who do not obtain tenure-track jobs) to regard themselves as failures. We need to (A) stop professionalizing our PhD students into conceiving themselves as failures if a permanent academic job doesn't work out (which I have heard is a very common attitude in PhD programs), and (B) do a much better job of professionalizing our PhD students so that they have greater capacities to be successful–for example, by better preparing them for opportunities for success outside of the academy.
Anyway, although I found early sections of the paper to be a bit protracted, the latter parts (sections 5 and 6)–where Sheredos gets to explaining the phenomenology of professional failure–contain some pretty moving passages that got me thinking about how I have responded in certain discussions, and how to do so in the future. So, rather than summarize and comment on Sheredos' analysis, I'd like to simply quote some choice passages that struck me as particularly meaningful and worth reflecting on, and then open things up for discussion:
Passage 1:
One had a plan for how to achieve success, but that plan has failed, as repeated failed attempts have called the whole plan into question in the breakdown of the teleological directedness of past achievements…One no longer knows with any degree of certainty where one stands in relation to Others. Ultimately, one no longer has any understanding of the socio-cultural (geistig) value that the profession assigns to achievement-objects.
One had created/acquired some of these objects; one thought this was an indicator of one’s skills and traits; one expected that this could lead to future success. All this has been put into doubt.
One no longer knows what it was one did that led to something that Others had deemed a relevant “achievement,” a partial success, in past cases.
One no longer knows how to evaluate the achievements of Others: do theirs contain some hidden feature that makes them incomparable to one’s own? Were one’s own achievements sham copies?
One no longer knows who is to be regarded as an “expert” in the profession. Hadn’t experts vouched for the quality of one’s own past achievements, vindicating them as indicating the possession of “professional” skills and traits? Hadn’t they encouraged the cultivation of “I-Can…” characters of experience, driving one forward into new challenges? And then again: aren’t experts (perhaps the same ones, perhaps others) now issuing an opposite judgment, as one’s repeated attempts are met with failure? Which of the alleged “experts” should be taken as having the professional mastery to issue the correct judgment about the true value of one’s achievements? And the more worrisome possibility: do any of them really know what they’re talking about? (pp. 21-2)
Passage 2:
I’ve described an extreme in the previous section: the total breakdown of the web of theses that support any attempt at professionalization. But an important element in an experience of professional failure is its dynamics: it is not a constant, total breakdown, but rather a vibrating alternation between extremes. I call experiences at the extremity of total breakdown abjection. I call experiences at the other extremity resolution.
When one stands in abjection (or, when repeated professional failure takes on the character of abject failure), none of one’s past experiences of achievement retains any motivation towards new attempts at achievement, and all theses concerning professional values, professional standing, and professional self are modalized to occur in a mode of doubt.
When one enacts resolution, one re-commits to the plan of professionalization: one resolves to try yet again. For genuine resolution to occur, one must genuinely work oneself back into the belief that “I-Can…” somehow succeed. One makes an honest effort, genuinely devising a plan that, one thinks, could lead to success despite challenges.
Phenomenologically, the most profound aspect of repeated experiences of professional failure is not abjection. Rather it is the alternation between abjection and resolution, in a prolonged and multifaceted act-schism (S3.5 above) involving many conflicting theses. As the phenomena of one’s human, professional self have begun to disintegrate, the pure ego must try going along with theses on both sides. I try considering the evidence that could lead me to judge that perhaps success is forthcoming: I reconsider past experiences, revisit old achievement-objects, poring over them for some sliver of evidence that could tip the scales decisively in favor of resolution. I may even succeed in enacting resolution: thereupon follows a fresh attempt – and another failure. But then I consider the evidence that would lead me to judge that success is not forthcoming: I reconsider the ever-growing list of failures, the seeming insurmountability of the challenge despite my best efforts. The pure ego is placed at variance with itself. It cannot decide the evidence one way or the other. And as a result, the pure ego cannot constitute stable convictions that one could take as appearances of oneself as-of a stable human subject.
This vibration between extremes occurs in the innermost depths of transcendental subjectivity. It is completely incomprehensible to any Other subject who is going on about their business in the Natural Attitude, and who apprehends all Others as human subjects in the social world. These Others cannot help but mis-understand the vibration as some crisis of human motivation. They recommend remedies for human problems. More cautious plans. More forgiving agendas. More careful attention. More sleep. A vacation. A distraction. “Where did you last see it?” Chicken soup.
This kind of solicitation is well-meant, and in many cases, it is tolerable or even pleasant. But when one has been spiraling in the vibration for some time, and when this kind of solicitation comes from those involved in the profession, it takes on a perverse aspect. Those involved in the profession, who are operating in the Natural Attitude, are the closest to who one wants to be, yet the furthest from understanding where one is. Well-meaning professionals and pre-professionals seek to provide encouragement, but do not understand that this is what is precisely impossible. They draw attention to past achievements – not understanding that their significance and teleological connectedness has been modalized already. They draw attention to future possibilities of success – not understanding that these are precisely what one cannot readily countenance after the disintegration. Or they seek to solicit “casual” professional conversation as if nothing is amiss – not understanding that this enforces the vibration, pushing one right back into the act-schism through a kind of gaslighting that discounts the profound modalizations that are motivated by one’s own experiences of failure. Or, more perversely still: their encouragements suggest that all this should have been anticipated – as if any aspect of the profession’s cult of “I-Can…” had prepared one for the abjection of “I quite clearly cannot, despite my best efforts and despite your best wishes.” Or, most perverse of all, they suggest that all this is somehow appropriate, that everything is going to plan – as if repeated failure itself should be assigned some secret socio-cultural value within the profession; as if the profession itself intended to sustain a pool of supplicants who are made to dwell in the vibration.
When one dwells in the vibration, one is not truly living alongside anyone in the profession for any duration. The entire social and practical world of the profession flickers and vibrates, it approaches and recedes. Others are at one moment near/admirable/friendly, and in the next moment remote/perverse/hostile, over and over again. The work-activities of the profession are at one moment attractive/rewarding, and in the next moment repellent/soul-crushing, over and over again. (pp. 22-3)
Passage 3:
The other escape-route is to actively decide to strike down the validities of resolution, embrace abjection, and cease one’s attempts at professional success….The more radical option along this path is inversion. This is the sixth possibility for escaping act-schism.18 In inversion, one embraces the thesis of the complete failure of professionalization, recognizing that it was one’s nascent interest-motives, plus a certain naivete, that led into this failure. After the disintegration of the teleological directedness of past achievements, these achievements were left only with their “native” values, viewed as dispersed overcomings-of-challenges with no connection between them. In inversion, one pursues a new totalizing valuation: every past achievement along the path of professionalization is valued as a mis-step, and the totality is seen as a mistake. After this same disintegration, one stood modalized, and one’s own being was left doubtful and uncertain. In inversion, one endorses a new determinate thesis: one constitutes their human subjectivity as being-a-failure, as having-been-in-error, as being-a-fool. Any remaining “I Can…” characters of experience are set aside, and instead one actively implements theses to declare: I will no longer. In the inversion, the profession is completely de-valued, as is being-professional. The entire web of theses is decisively inverted. The work-activities of the profession are decisively evaluated as having no practical validity as way of cultivating one’s interests. Being-professional is decisively evaluated as not a valuable way to be.
If one can sustain inversion, then one has not only escaped the vibration of act-schism, but has cut off any route that could draw one back into it. The are several significant barriers to pursuing inversion.
First: from within. This is the nature of act-schism. In inversion one declares, in effect: “if those are the rules of the game, then I do not wish to play anymore.” It is difficult to endorse this thesis, because there remains evidence to support the thesis that one does want to play the game, and some evidence that one is good at the game. Juxtaposed against this is the conflicting evidence that one really does not understand the game, that one is not in fact good at it, and that no one seems to want you on their team.
Second: from without. The professionals and pre-professionals alongside whom one had been working expect certain behaviors – “professionalism.” They expect human disappointment in the face of failure, and they also expect the quiet re-assertion of continuing resolution: after all, they’ve all overcome past challenges, and they’ve seen you do the same. This means that if one simply disengages from the work-activities and social activities of the profession, one has not really made one’s position clear: this could be interpreted as taking a simple “break” to muster strength for the next attempt.19 Mere disengagement is likely to solicit attempts at encouragement – which as discussed above, only re-enforce social validities that put one back into the vibration of act-schism. The threat of encouragement is precisely what must be evaded to attain stable inversion and escape act-schism. One must not only strike down the validity of the web of theses internally, but must also strike down standing social validities: one must actively and thoroughly alienate oneself from the profession, systematically disrupting Others’ apprehension of you, as a means of preventing them from pulling you back into the profession.
Only a thorough and public declaration of one’s break from the profession could really demonstrate that one has opted to pursue the radical option of inversion. It is impossible to do this in a “professional” manner, by definition. And there is the risk of misunderstanding: “I am done with this” may not fully convey the recognition of profound failure that is built into inversion. Perhaps better: “This profession is done with me.” (pp. 25-6)
Finally, I would be remiss if I did not include a screenshot of the paper's concluding section:

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